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I Didn't Realiize How Much I Missed

Posted 10-12-2018 at 08:35 AM by GohanMaster

Today, I was looking through some old posts and having random flash backs of when AF first started. I was the 2nd person to join this place. I remembered when certain members first joined and when I made 300 posts in a few days. Then I started looking through all my page comments.... I can't believe I was gone for so long. I don't know why I left. I was emotionally unstable and I left the only place that made me feel safe and happy. Because I was gone for so long, I missed out on so much. Reading through my page messages, I can remember some of the conversations like it was just yesterday. Now it feels my friends are gone. Not all of them at least, but a lot of them. I don't know why they left, just like they don't know why I left. But maybe they will be like me and come back someday. I feel weird being here, because I have yet to find my place. I'm not use to being a citizen so that is a new change for me. It is strange and slightly frustrating because I don't know my boundaries as apposed to being a Super Mod, but that is just something that will take getting use to. I still hate the fact that I left and missed out on a lot of milestones for the site. I never fully hit me until a little while ago when I suddenly remembered how AF first came to be. I can not change the past. I hate that. But at least I'm here now. I'm here for good, and I won't leave, not again. I'm sorry if I let anyone down before, and I'm sorry to all my friends who I just let go. I promise I'll do better. But thank you for having me back. I'm very thankful for that.
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    Gohanmaster you do not have to apologize. Everyone has a journey and life takes you along many paths.
    And it is great you are going to stay. I am very happy.
    Posted 10-14-2018 at 12:01 AM by Saber Saber is offline
 

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